Black hole

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Morning to noon
I asked the night to come soon
To rest my agonizing soul,
Inside me was a burning coal.
Never did i notice
my heart was torn into pieces,
Mending it would only break
That’s why I wanted someone to take.
And throw it in the lake
But it came to me every time
As if forgiveness wasn’t ready to accept my crime.
Can i blame my hilarious fate?
It taught me how easy it was to hate.
And when the night would befall
uneasiness would recall,
from within my mind
i couldn’t escape even if i was blind.
felt enveloped in the arms of hell
this is one of my stories that i want to tell.

Illusion of false reality.

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Along the worldly attachments,
With hearts so black,
Difficult it becomes to bring life on track
Sadly it’s the faith we lack.

If only here-after was our goal
We would have the purest of soul
Life would be better & whole

But what takes us away,
Do we realize?
It’s our paradise we jeopardize

Don’t we have limited time ?
So who do you think
Would answer for our crimes?

Like an ordinary man
We’ll be buried under the ground
We won’t hear anything nor a sound
Only darkness would hound

Wont it be nice to wake-up from a dream
Face reality because in it lies a gleam.
Knowing the unseen, we’d only scream

The attachment of this life is a lie
We’d only hurt ourselves & cry.

Some days…

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In the darkest of hours
When all hopes have gone far
In the midst of chaos
When moments seems to have paused
At the time of agony
When life seems worse than a tragedy
During the ups and the downs
When all I do is frown
When the tears in my eyes
Are the reason for the lies
When the hurt hits so hard
When I finally fall apart
I remember you  o lord
Without you my existence would be lost…

…in the rose garden

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In the garden of roses
Caught by the sight of pure bliss
I saw her watering life
And asked myself
Was I in paradise?

The color of her skin
like the jewels that one would commit a sin
And so I wanted to win
Her heart like a Hero
In movies & films

But to be honest
I preferred watching her from far
Somewhat I was petrified to break open
The pieces of my heart in a jar
Because I still had some visible scars

Even then I wanted to talk
I wasn’t someone who’d stalk
She had the key to my heart’s lock
But my mind was in a state of block

Couldn’t think except her smile
I haven’t felt anything like this in a while
It looked like over was my trial
Her number was in my phone book
But I never had the courage to dial

So should I step forward?
Or take a step backwards
Because it’s my heart that hurts

Couldn’t figure out why
The pain made me laugh & not cry
These are my feelings, it’s no lie

In the garden of roses
Caught by the sight of pure bliss
It was her that I wanted to kiss…

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Young & free

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I saw you by the river bank
Looking at you my heart sank
And when you smiled
My mind turned blank
But just to be frank
Your presence is like a big bang
I remember the song you sang
Sitting by the river; on that plank
Writing your wishes; tying a knot to hang
Forget the world & I’ll introduce you to my gang
I’ll take you to a place without a traffic jam
And make for you cheese ham
Is your name Sam?
God what am I doing ? Dam
Lets exchange e-mails and web cam
I guess no, I’ll write you a letter with pen
Oh my god its already ten
So will I see you tomorrow then
I’ll tell you my feelings, i know i can
By the way my name is Ben
I’ve been in love with you
Am not sure since when.

 

The mind talk.

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I had a piece of paper
And a pencil in my hand
Funny it is but I was totally blank

The thoughts in my mind
Played games
And I kept quiet
Burning my heart into flames

I couldn’t describe what was inside
As if thousand years my eyes had cried.

But something did bother
Maybe a forgotten memory
Coming back to me
Like a tragedy

And I wanted to run
Miles from it
But all I did was sit
Fading every sec, every bit

I don’t know why
But my tears were now dry

Trapped inside my own body
I was starting to get suffocated
And everything, everyone
I hated

I wanted to be left alone

Around people
I wasn’t able to settle
Perhaps I was fighting
My own battle

But could they even comprehend
That they were being consumed
With lies & pretense
And nothing made sense

Nor the talk
Neither the time on the clock

But I still waited for the day
When prayers would come alive
And all that heartache was worth the fight