Those days. …

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What is this old feeling of uneasiness?
My hair, the bed, it’s a mess,
Oh Allah what is this test?
Now I am tired and I want to rest,
Please help me over come my anger and give my best,
Why does this heart feels heavy in my chest?

I can’t explain this agony,
Oh Allah, give me some remedy.

Bring me closer now I can’t walk,
My lips move but I can’t talk.
It feels like i am lost in a dense fog,
But I do feel light when I sob.

So will this end?
You know in prayer I raise my hand.

Something does happen like it’s magic,
Like a laughter in tragic.

Unbelievable I believe,
But at times I can’t take the grief,

In front of you I like to weep,
Even if my scars are deep,
I find salvation when I am weak,
It’s the earth that i want to leave.

Oh Allah, patience is what I seek,
Sometimes my future seems bleak,
I know what we sow is what we reap,
But my heart is a stubborn child,
Finding it’s way through the wild.

So bring me back my sanity,
Life is nothing but imaginary,
The hurt will still hurt,
But don’t flowers still bloom in dirt…

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A saint or a sinner?

Sinner by the day,
A saint by night,
In front of the mirror,
I see an ugly sight.

My heart is remorseful,
My soul is hurtful,
But I consume the guilt,
Back again I dwell in the filth.

I wonder if there is an end,
The world has given me no friend.
Bones to ashes,
At night i see haunted flashes.

Come to my rescue,
And save me from this hell,
But the world asks me for my soul,
In exchange I only get a burning coal.

But when the night falls,
In the silence someone calls,
My heart quivers,
And my lips whisper.

The eyes swallow the ocean,
And i don’t allow any intrusion,

In the moment of quietness,
Prayers touch the lips,
And I am broken into every bits.

…in the rose garden

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In the garden of roses
Caught by the sight of pure bliss
I saw her watering life
And asked myself
Was I in paradise?

The color of her skin
like the jewels that one would commit a sin
And so I wanted to win
Her heart like a Hero
In movies & films

But to be honest
I preferred watching her from far
Somewhat I was petrified to break open
The pieces of my heart in a jar
Because I still had some visible scars

Even then I wanted to talk
I wasn’t someone who’d stalk
She had the key to my heart’s lock
But my mind was in a state of block

Couldn’t think except her smile
I haven’t felt anything like this in a while
It looked like over was my trial
Her number was in my phone book
But I never had the courage to dial

So should I step forward?
Or take a step backwards
Because it’s my heart that hurts

Couldn’t figure out why
The pain made me laugh & not cry
These are my feelings, it’s no lie

In the garden of roses
Caught by the sight of pure bliss
It was her that I wanted to kiss…

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Young & free

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I saw you by the river bank
Looking at you my heart sank
And when you smiled
My mind turned blank
But just to be frank
Your presence is like a big bang
I remember the song you sang
Sitting by the river; on that plank
Writing your wishes; tying a knot to hang
Forget the world & I’ll introduce you to my gang
I’ll take you to a place without a traffic jam
And make for you cheese ham
Is your name Sam?
God what am I doing ? Dam
Lets exchange e-mails and web cam
I guess no, I’ll write you a letter with pen
Oh my god its already ten
So will I see you tomorrow then
I’ll tell you my feelings, i know i can
By the way my name is Ben
I’ve been in love with you
Am not sure since when.

 

Rhythm of love

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Looking at you;

                I saw freedom
                For years I’ve been caged in my kingdom
                Suddenly I wanted to steal you away & run
                Would you wait for me & come?
 
 But the boundaries;

                Were such
                That our closure was tough
                All I could think of was your touch
 
 It was like;       

                A dream
                For so long I have screamed
                Bottled up my emotions away from the beam
                We had a chemistry, it seemed

And when you came;

                Things started to feel different
                I was alive & you were brilliant.
 
 But was it; 

                Inappropriate?
                To look for pieces of me in your fate 
                And acting on my impulses in haste                                                       
                              
 And they say;

                I will regret
                That rainy day; the kiss; I can’t forget.           
                                              
 So let me embrace;

                You in my arms
                If I kiss you again, don't be alarmed
 
 Because it doesn’t matter;

                What comes next
                I know its complex 
 
 But being with you;

                I found salvation
                It was not an ordinary relation...         


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